"I... I got used to you not bein' around. Or I tried to. It was... It was the hardest fuckin' thing I've ever done, losing both of you. I mean, I know you keep sayin' you're not sure this is a good thing, but I can't..." I trail off, my fingers tight around his and my voice thin and lodged in the back of my throat.

"I can't even believe you're here. I keep thinkin' I'm gonna wake up, and I'm not sure I want to."