"I'm not apologizing either. I'm just sorry it happened." He ignores the beer, ignores everything else but Neil's face and the feel of their hands fitted perfectly together. And this has always been true. This has always been how this works. Even when things are shit and seem seconds from falling apart completely.

And things are good. Now.

"Y'know, I used to wonder what it'd be like if it was just us," he says after a few moments.