"I know." He sighs, leans into Neil a little. Of course he's right. And that's what makes it worse, to be feeling this way. It's irrational, unfair, selfish, and the selfish part he can live with but the rest of it bothers him.

"I don't blame him. Okay? I just want to get that clear right now. I don't blame either of them. These are my issues. I just..." He shakes his head, jaw working. "I didn't expect to have 'em. I probably should have."