"I mean a lotta shit's happened between then and now. You, Tom, the girls..." This. Whatever the fuck this is. He's long since stopped insisting that he's not the same guy that Neil knew in the island, because it's not that simple, but on the other hand it sort of is.

He's not that man. In some ways he has very few things in common with him.

"I told you, when you got stuck in her fucking body, I chose you. I wanted you. Now I'm starting to realize... Neil, I'm always gonna love her. But I don't need her. I'm not the man she fell in love with. Fuck, if it comes down to it, I'm not the man Tom fell in love with, either. I don't even know what the fuck he'd think of me. Doing what I do."

He gives Neil's wrist a slow squeeze. "Whatever I am now... It's something that's totally yours."