He swallows - maybe in part to just let Neil feel the working of his throat. But then, slowly, he turns, not touching Neil, letting Neil decide how much to touch him. Somehow they've come full circle and ended up almost exactly where they were at the beginning. Which is where he never wanted to be again.

"I showed Andrea the room in the asylum," he says simply. "When she said she wanted to do it. The baby. And I told her... the only reason this works is 'cause you're in control. And I think... we both stopped believing I'm the one with the power here a while ago."

He lifts his eyes to Neil's, and something about it feels instantly like a relief. "You're in control. Be in control. I need it, I can't do it myself."