"I can get tested or whatever," I offer, trying to shake the feeling guilt looming over me, tight in the pit of my stomach, this feeling like I've done something wrong. Because it was me, I'm the dirty one, I'm the one that could've caught something from any number of strangers I've been with, because I've never been careful. I've always been fuckin' stupid. And for the first time, I get that maybe I've been putting him at risk.

I'm not the only one I have to worry about, anymore.

"I mean, it's not a big deal."