My mouth drops open, just hanging there stupidly, and I just stare, up at the window he's pointing to. I just stare, 'cause everything feels like it's frozen, like somebody pushed the fuckin' pause button and I can't get myself going again.

"Why... Mike, why are you showin' me this?" I say, and it's not an accusation. I honestly need him to fuckin' spell it out to me, why he's driven me all the way out to an apartment he doesn't even have yet. He's gotta explain to me why this feels so major, and why I feel like I've got some part in it, even though I've never felt so fuckin' lost in my whole life.