Shrugging awkwardly, I say, "When Olive told me I was still back there, it was easier, you know? I knew they were okay."

Scrubbing a hand across my mouth, I drag in a breath, finally forcing myself to look at him.

"I don't even know who they're with, now. I could ask Mathias, but... Shit, I dunno."

Maybe it's better, not knowing.