"No," he breathes - agreeing. A ghost of a shiver makes its way down his spine. After, he had felt absurdly like crying, and then had realized that it wasn't really absurd at all. "He was in pain. I wanted to help him. You know."

He shifts closer, arm around Neil's waist and knee nestled between his legs. "And I think I did. So." He manages a faint smile. "That happened."